Friday, July 31, 2009

Too many changes

Do you ever feel like life is going so fast and so many changes are coming that you don't want to deal with anything sometimes. Life is crazy here: Mic going to college at Dixie, and mission coming up, new job for Andy( which could be stressful for our family but we need the job bad), Feeling like YW is so busy and feeling overwhelmed, but I love it and I love all the girls( I just want all the girls to feel loved), friends moving, school starting, and the list goes on. All these changes have made me feel stressed and feeling like I don't want to go on, but I have to, so I force myself to do things. I feel better after I do them, but these feelings are still there and don't seem to go away. I'm always on the verge of crying, but I try to think of good things and have stopped it a few times. I think all these feelings is why I have not blogged in a while. It was nice to sit down today to read everyone's blogs. I have not done that in awhile.

I have been walking/running lately and going on 4 weeks now. The canyon is my favorite and that's where I think alot and I think has helped me with these bad stressed feelings. I hope it does not get cold soon, cause the canyon and running is helping a little. I don't like to run in the cold. I think running, the canyon and reading all your blogs help. I will post some pictures soon if I have some.

This summer has been very boring for our kids. Except for Haley. She has been gone for 3 weeks this summer. Girls camp, EFY, Soccer camp at Dixie, and Student council at Dixie. She paid for all of it herself. She made over $700 this summer and we are so proud of her. Paying for all these things have made it more meaningful for her. We have not done much but go to a movie or two, just working alot and trying to make it. Our California Beach trip(family vacation before Mic leaves to go to school and his mission) got thrown out the window, but there is always next year. Sorry Mic. I think the kids are actually excited about school starting, hey my house will stay cleaner too. I'm excited for school to start and it might make things better. Hope everyone is doing well.

7 comments:

karen louise said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling so down...come over to my house and we will have a pity party! No seriously, I hope you start feeling better about things soon. I really love you and I know that God is watching over your family and things will work out. That's what President Hinckley used to always say, and I trusted in that..."Things will work out. Things will be ok".

Love you!

ChasingChasey said...

I had no idea you were so stressed, you hide it well! Please let me know if there is ever anything I can do for you! I am loving working with you in Young Womens, and I really just love you!!

Karla said...

Those are some real feelings! I feel for you, I can't imagine getting ready to send kids off to college and missions and all that stuff. I suppose my day will come soon enough. I am sorry you are feeling so overwelmed or stressed. Life seems to push us over the edge sometimes. I love you and am thinking of you often. I hope you are feeling more cheery soon. I miss being over there...

Joni said...

Julie, Life can be difficult sometimes and we feel like we can take nothing more but, we have to look at the big picture! You have 4 wonderful children who love you more then anything in this world! All of your siblings love you and we are here to help each other throught he hard times! So lean on us a little will ya! I love you sissy! These hard times will pass and you will be much stronger for going through these trials!!! Chin up!! Love you!

wendy said...

Caradon's right--you hide your stress well. I'm sorry things are so overwhelming, too. Hugs to you, Julie. And chocolate, if I had any. I've got a good ear, too, if you need a sounding board. I Love you and think you're wonderful!!

Karen Brothersen said...

Wow! That is a lot of changes! But Julie, you are a strong woman and you can get through it all! You have a lot of people to support you! Like ME! So, call me anytime you need me!

Shelley said...

Julie, you remind me of me :-) I hide my stress well too, and no one ever sees my tears. Because you remind me of me, I know that you are strong and that there isn't anything you can't handle. My favorite motto in my life is: "The most rewarding things you do in life are often the ones that look like they cannot be done" (Arnold Palmer). Challenges help smooth out our rough edges and make us stronger. I know from experience that your coming-up life changes are hard--especially the college and mission thing. After they leave, it's never the same again, but your love for your kids will only get stronger as you watch them fulfill their life goals. Remember you have your family to lean on and the knowledge that we love you and are praying for you. Hang in there--I know you can do it. Just take it one day at a time! Love you, sis!